Since I didn't want to sound so desperate anymore (I still am but anyway ), I decided to make a journal and ask you all for help.

No, not with money, but with photography. All you photographers, I need your help in developing my skills, and getting better at this. I know a lot that I am doing wrong, and I need concrete direct tips on how to improve myself. I need details. I don't need "better lights would be good" I need, "use this kind of light source, place it that far from the object" and so on. I need camera settings, light tips and things like that.

Now you might think that I am a very lazy person that should start experimenting and learn this by myself and not try to get a free ride.. but listen, I have no time, I almost never have possibility to take photos at all, and if I have to start experimenting every time without beeing completely sure of what I am doing, it will never be any photos. I read a LOT, and I try to learn and practice on other things, but I still would very much appreciate your advice.

I don't like asking for help, but this time, I do it anyway.